To fall away is a slow fade...

In that moment when I realize that I have been gradually making conscious, although small, decisions of disobedience, my heart breaks. I realize that I am responsible for where I am, and I know how I got there. It was by a string of tiny choices that led me further and further from the heart and will of my Father God. I realize, repent, and turn to Him again, wondering if there will ever be a time when I will make the right decision first instead of later.

I thank God for His grace in showing me that every decision to bear my heart when I should have guarded it, or to be still and listen instead of speak, or even simply to seek love in the approval of others instead of giving it, causes my heart to wander from Him. It's a good reminder that every time I know that there is a decision to be made, and I choose what I want when I know He has something better, it effects more than just that moment. There is no such thing as an independant moment in time...all is eternal.

Ephesians 2:10 "For we are his workmanship, having been created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God has before prepared that we should walk in them."